Well 2014 is officially over (like 3 weeks ago) and I can’t believe January is over in a few days. So much has happened to my family and myself over the past few months.
Family wise, my dad was hired by the new company that took over the building (he is a superintendent) and he feels a bit more comfortable with his new employers. He hours were cut drastically from 40 hours a week to only 15 hours a week (appx he works 3 hours a day) and his pay is worse. My mom was unemployed but finally I was able to nail 2 jobs for her (she cleans homes for a living) and she is super happy. So, everything at home is going OK for now. I cannot complain.
I am living back home which sucks at times because I miss having my own space. Not sure if its a Hispanic cultural thing but being a female in the household is like carrying a heavy weight of ‘things to do’ for the family. For example, running errands, finding jobs for my mom, going to the job interviews with my mom (language purposes), doctor appointments, communicating with my dad’s new employers (his manager), ect. I literally have no time for myself. It is my fault for letting everything fall into my lap but when I see my parents need help, I am there right away. I love them to death but at times I feel like I’m drowning here.
I made a promise to myself that I will put myself first in everything, it’s time to be selfish. Not necessarily because of my parents, but I feel like generally people do that and don’t give flying f***k. I am not a rude person, but I need to be vocal and just recently I have been doing that.
My dissertation was put on the backseat and now I’m starting to get back into the grind with it. I have been procrastinating like no other. I feel like I’m a bi-polar person when it comes to my work and needs/wants. So, I need to get my act together. This semester, I have to defend my dissertation, no matter what. I got a full-time job as a research associate at a university, and they are letting me work there this semester (on Monday, Feb 2) and I am super thankful and happy for the opportunity.
So far, 2015 is treating me OK but I know I can do better for myself! No more complaining and bitching I need to just do it and get things done! That is my motto for 2015!!
I will write back later this week! Happy Writing!!!